Tuesday, December 23th, 8:21 PM I feel so incredibly hated right now... My older brother hates me to death... like, he seriously wants to kill me. And I'm scared because I'm afraid that he will kill me one day. I don't know how protected I am or how much longer I could have to live... and I want to live... I don't want to be killed (obviously). I didn't have dinenr with my family today because my older brother was really hurting my self esteem with his comments. When I heard him go back to his room, and I went downstairs because I was STARVING and had starved myself trying to avoid my brother. By that time, the hot food my parents had made was gone... I rummaged through the fridge wondering if I'd find anything I could eat that consisted of enough food groups. I was really worried at first, but then I found a chicken burrito, which is pretty good I guess. That still wasn't very much food, and I didn't get fruit or vegetables or anything. My parents usually set those out for us.
So I hope I live long enough until my brother goes to college next year. Then I'll be free.. A little bit longer and I'll be fine.
Havent I met ur brother? Well, I've seen him! Becka he wouldnt kill u! No one would EVER kill u! (I would NOT let them....) Now someones probably gonna call the child abuse hotline or something.....
yeah, you've SEEN my brother, but youve never experienced my brother. my parents force him to be nice to all my friends or else he gets in mega trouble. and he woudlnt be mean to me in front of my friend either.
Monday, January 26th, 4:57 PM EEP. Well, i suppose you're all familiar with my current almost year-long crush [Do you ever think when you're all alone? All that we can be, where this thing can go?], Luke. So I have some stories to shares. :D
So we just switched seats in math today, which is a bummer because he sat behind me for over a month which was GREAT! Haha. Anyways, we became really good friends because we sat by each other and we would talk aloottt. But the best conversation by far is the one I'm about to tell you. But it's kinda short. But it was AMAZING!
So I turned around and was like, "What did you get for B4 (a math prob)- and you have a white thing in your hair." (Which he did). So he weakly (very weakly, very little effort) stroked his hair and I was all, "Ehh, still there. :)" and then he stared at me with his beautiful intense eyes and showed me his deeply attractive half smile, and was all, "Get it." So at first I wondered if I was being tested and if I should refuse. But something in my brain was all, "CEIZE THE MOMENT!" So I got it. And it was awesome. His hair was super softtt. And then he's all, "That's paper!" and we talked a little more and laughed. Then later I turned around and was all, "You know, I just saved your life. It could've been a very large piece of dandruff." He laughed and said, "Not likely." I was like, "Well, could've been. How much shampoo do you use?" He uses two pumps. Just thought I'd let ya'll know that cuz you all cared so much. :) Hahahaha.
Sorry but I've been LIVING off of that moment. <3 -melts- :]]]] I loooveee himmmm haha (not for real, I just exaggerate when I say 'I love you' to peolple most of the time). Anyways. that be all. I'm 90%-99% sure he stilll likes me so I'm gonna ask him to dance at the dance in March. And I hope he says yes... :( Byeeeee.
Moonstar, you are amazing! How could he NOT say yes? You're an extremely nice, considerate and overall amazing person! I give you the best of luck! *hugs* And I'm sure things will be fine, Moony.
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07.08.13
okay, then. unfortunately loving an idiot who doesn't love me back. but i'm not falling. i just kind of... am. .