everyone is growing up. and i can't tell if that's good or not. i think the message has gotten around that everyone has matured and gotten to thinking about other things. i hope if that happens -- that people leave -- i will stay in touch with friends.
it also seems to me...
that when you seem to find something you lose another. in turn, i have gained a friend, but lost another. should i see that as a sign? i have now gotten over paul. he and i bicker a lot -ofcoursewedoandofcourseitbotherspeople- still but in turn, i've developed other feelings for a good friend of mine. we can call him B. moonie feel grateful you have no one to have your heart skip a beat at when he looks at you because you're right. happiness is just way to rare around these parts.
it seems to all of us...
i'm writing a story about angels and fantasies and flashbacks and other stuff. sorry i'm so shady about this. i love the story and though i love you guys i've learned to not trust as easily. happiness is just way too rare.
~hey soul sister, ain't that mister mister on the radio, stereo, they way you move ain't fair you know. hey soul sister, i don't wanna miss a single thing you do -- tonight. the way that you can't cut a rug, watching you is the only *drug* i need so gangsta i'm so thug, you're the only one i'm dreamin' of, you see, i can be myself now finally and there's nothing i can't be; i want the world to see you be, with me.~
resta
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07.08.13
okay, then. unfortunately loving an idiot who doesn't love me back. but i'm not falling. i just kind of... am. .
i think, for once, love is giving me a chance. and hopefully it will end up okay for once. but, i think love is also getting a little out of control. i don't like playing with two boy's hearts. especially when i love them both.
stupid love.
resta
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07.08.13
okay, then. unfortunately loving an idiot who doesn't love me back. but i'm not falling. i just kind of... am. .
hey guys, happy new year. <3 i love you all. tomorrow's a new year, right? a fresh start from all the crazy stuff that happened? i'm sorry i wasn't on that much during christmas week. my best friend's grandfather died, and things just became crazy between he and i, and now we're really close. good things do kinda come from tragedies. and i went to see james cameron's avatar for the second time last night. i invited paul to come, but he said no. maybe it was for the better. (:
tomorrow is a new year. a fresh start. a brand new year full of more daring turns and frightful adventures for us of the generation of 2010. scared? probably. i know i am. but, since this is a new beginning, i'm gonna use it. and hopefully, it'll be a good one. i love you all.
resta
p.s. what are your new year's resolutions? tell me i'd love to know mine are: - write more - draw more - be myself more - try and get a boyfriend ^^' - lose a few pounds - put the cussing to a minimum - do better in school - don't procrastinate - make up more new year's resolutions.
-- Edited by Florestapaw on Thursday 31st of December 2009 07:23:42 PM
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07.08.13
okay, then. unfortunately loving an idiot who doesn't love me back. but i'm not falling. i just kind of... am. .
today, i was talking to my friend luke about how cold it was. i said, "i'm wearing a flannel and a northface." he said, "i'm wearing this ugly shirt and my football jacket." i laughed. he told me, "i wear half a** shirts because i don't give a s**t about what people think about me." man, i wish i could think the same way. but then again, sometimes you have to be able to fit the mold.
and don't mind the swearing. if you mind it, i'm sorry. it's just who my friends are.
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07.08.13
okay, then. unfortunately loving an idiot who doesn't love me back. but i'm not falling. i just kind of... am. .
so last saturday, i had a six-hour rehersal for my concert (which was yesterday). we only rehersed as a band that first rehersal and yesterday. both rehersals were nine a.m. to three p.m. and let me tell you it was a BLAST. it was the best of the best from my state, and they sure were the besttt [: like it was mindblowing how good everyone sounded. but anyways, yesterday i got to the rehersal early and some guy came over and talked to me and i kept seeing him look at me... i still dont know his name, while he probably knows mineee. oops haha. oh well.. but wow it was just amazing and words cant describe how amazing it was.
afterwards my friend's family and mine went out to eat, then we went to a candy store. my friend bought a pound of candy. ahaha...
bbut yea. if i could type down everything about the rehersals and all the awesome people and all that stuff... it would be a twenty page essay. oops. hahaha [:
so that's why ive been missing. and i'll probbaly continue this hiatus. i just wanted to say hi.
resta.
-- Edited by Florestapaw on Sunday 14th of March 2010 01:35:47 PM
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07.08.13
okay, then. unfortunately loving an idiot who doesn't love me back. but i'm not falling. i just kind of... am. .