Warrior Cats: The Four Clans

Emberpaw · WindClan Apprentice

RE: Kestreleye's Journal UPDATE: August 25th, 2008. Big info dump in recent entry.

Florestadream · RiverClan Warrior

Updated.
Kinda a sad entry.
I'm gonna edit it.

EDITED.
Anyways, I don't want to like anyone.
That wasn't a lie.
I wouldn't like anyone but him if that made him happy.
But then again, that would hurt others.
And my aim isn't to hurt another...
But to help my sad friend.

-- Edited by Kestreleye at 21:55, 2008-08-27

Ebonycloud · WindClan Deputy

RE: Kestreleye's Journal UPDATE: August 27th, 2008.

Florestadream · RiverClan Warrior

*smiles* Yeah, it's hard. Especially when my friends hate him. It's hard. And my friend Casey's like, "Why do you care if he looks at you?" And I lied and said, "'Cause I don't like it."

Emberpaw · WindClan Apprentice

D'aw <33
I hope it works out with your friend. :(
CTGYKCJ TGYJKVGYJUKJ
I WANT SCHOOL TO STAAAARRRT D:

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Florestadream · RiverClan Warrior

Sept 8, 2008

Wow. I haven't written in awhile. Anyways, so, I have a new really good friend... and his name's Brian. My good friends are as of the following: Brian, Casey, Lauren, Caitlin, Diana, and Josie. The others use me. Like, I was hanging out with Julia at recess, and she totally yelled at me. And I was just joking around. Not only that, but in band she pushed me to the row with saxophones! But I'm kinda glad she did. I've made two new friends from band, and I want to stay with them, so there! I got really mad at her, so I hung out with one real friend and several users.

So, my friend Brian, my user friend likes him. She got mad at me when I told her I talked to him, she went all freestyle on me and now she hates me. Of course, her grudges don't last long, but still. She got me freaked out, and so now I have only a few friends. I sit with them. So my user friend that likes Brian can be all by herself. If she likes a guy,s he makes up lies that they gave her something. Like, my first BF, Steven? She liekd him,a nd said she got a necklace from him. I got so mad because he really didn't. And now she's lying that Brian gave her something. I told him what she does to me, and I don't think he likes her anymore. Like, when I was talking about her, he stared at me like, "Are you kidding me?" And I gave him a look that said, "Absolutely no way and I lying." And so now he doesn't like her.

Wow, this is going to be long. Anyways, so he's a great friend. And, oh my gosh, I don't like anyone! Ever since I broke up with Steven, I haven't truly liked anyone. I'm not sure if I like anyone, I should actually say. I mean, I kind of like Brian, but not enough to want to go out with him. I think I like someone though. Though I'm totally unsure. His name is... DUN DUN DUNNNN! I can't tell. Anyways, he's really nice. :3

So, enough of my ranting on how people are users. But still, I can't fully trust anyone... yet. I have no one to help me... but Casey. I vent to him a lot, and I feel bad about it, so I'm inviting him to my party again. To DQ! xD Have to wait 'till may. Anyways, wish me luck guys! I'm trying out for a play sooner or later. It's going to be stressful. I'll ask Brian for help. He's been in lots of plays.

Sadness, Happiness and Overall Equallity
Kestreleye

-- Edited by Kestreleye at 20:00, 2008-09-08

Emberpaw · WindClan Apprentice

RE: Kestreleye's Journal UPDATE: Pg 5, Sept 8

Florestadream · RiverClan Warrior

Ya, my life is horrible. But I call it my 'secret life' 'cause my parents don't know about it. It's a shame really, but it'd hurt them more than me.

Florestadream · RiverClan Warrior

Sept 10, 2008

Just a small one, but whatev'. Okay, so in Math, we had little groups, right? Well, my user friend that likes Brian thought she Brian, Karen and I were going to be in a group. Wow, she had it wrong. Erin, Sam, Brian, and I were in a group, and she got mad at me, again. She was like, "Vally, I hate you because you're in Brian's group." And I was like, "That's fine with me. I don't care if you hate me or not. You can do either, and to tell you the truth, I don't like you that much either."

It must've gone in one ear and out the other because today she completely forgave me. Gosh, she needs to learn to hold grudges. If you're going to be mean or hate someone, don't just then let it pass by you. Take it, and hold it close. "Keeps your friends close and your enemies closer." That's what my mom always told me. I'm planning on making a necklace, and asking someone to etch in that phrase. It's really important to me.

Update on Julia. She hates me even more. She wouldn't talk to me today. She and my user friend that likes Brian? They're like, best friends, and they used to hate each other. So they both hate me now. And when they got into that fight that I talked about on DA? The one that lieks Brian thought that I was siding with Julia, when all I was trying to do was get my butt out of the fight. They wouldn't let me. So now I hang with my group, and I don't care how it goes.

Lauren's mad at me for Gods only knows why. She gets mad at me for the stupidest reasons! She got mad at me for not saying hi. What now? Is she mad at me for wanting to sit with someone I've been friends with since preschool? Huh? I don't think that's her problem. If she has one, why can't she tell me. I've been hurt worse emotionally. Why does she think it'll hurt me? Because I can fake cry? Yeah, right. If you'd like to know, I don't care what people think of me. It doesn't hurt me, whatever you think. If you call me names, harass me, threaten me, I'd tell an adult, and you'd get in trouble. But you know what? I wouldn't care about what you said, it's how many times you do it.

Wow, this is a depressing entry, isn't it? Sorry guys. I've been losing so many friends, and it's only the third week of school. I feel really mad and sad right now. People are deserting me, getting mad at me, yelling at me, punishing me. I have a small handful of friends. Another one deserted me. Oh, what a surprise! Lauren. I can't believe it. She was my best friend. And now she likes someone, and she's pushing away everyone else but a girl named Katie who yells at me if I play a sport with her, and her sister. I'm sorry, guys. But this is so bad. If I stop coming on, don't get mad. But... it's all my fault. It's not my family's, not yours, mine.

Do I want my life to be like this? Not at all. But people want to let me go. So what if I'm uncaring towards anyone that's not qualified to be my friend? Example. There was a guy named Sam, and he was mean to Lauren. So I got mad at him. She got mad at me for getting mad at him. I gave up, and then she asked me for help. And I looked at her and nodded my head no and said, "No. This is YOUR problem. Take care of it yourself. I have my own to deal with." People get dependant on me, and then I crash and burn. Take a look at me. If you see me in a real life, I have dark circles beneath my eyes; I hardly smile. It's hard to make me laugh if I'm really there before you. People make fun on me. I failed Math last year. Not in fourth term though. I'm ripping apart at the seams. My family's breaking. My grandfather is dying. My grandmother wants to die with him. My aunt and uncle don't talk to my mom. My dad gets mad and cusses at me and my family. My life is a horrible jumble. I'm sorry for wasting your time, making you read this.

Healthy, Happy, Forever, Together,
Vally

Emberpaw · WindClan Apprentice

RE: Vally's Journal UPDATE: Pg 5, Sept 10