Everything was fine when you left, I sat here knowing i could trust you, I never once doubted you You were my friend, You were here for me and I for you,
And yet here we are, That always present trust, You threw it away, I sat here dumbly believing in you, How could you?
I didn't even know, Why? How could you do it? I don't even know you anymore, I thought you were more than that.
You held such high ideals, I looked up to you, No matter what you were my model, Yet you were the one, Yes you strayed from pure road.
Nothing I say now will change a thing, The only thing I have to say to you is, You've lost me, I can't look at you the same, You've gone to a place i can't follow.
Your words are worth dirt now, I used to hold on to them like gold, but no longer, I can't trust you and its your fault, Yet here I am.
I still believe you, Maybe it was all a dream, I can't help this connection, You have my trust even now, It brings me to tears to know this fact.
How can I hate you? I can't and you know it, You hold this bond over my head, Knowing that I still believe in you, Knowing I still care.
I won't look her in the eye, She isn't worth my time, I don't see how she was ever worth your's, You protest that you don't care for her, Yet your actions tell me, You didn't think too ill of her.
Here I sit, I have no right to scold you, I have no right to punish you, I just hope that the one that does have the right, Will have mercy upon your actions. Is it fair? No... But its the truth.
This is just somthing i wrote because come rather shocking things have come to light in my life. This poem(I dont usually write poems because i am not good at them) is about someone rather dear to me. Its also about someone i thought i knew but it seems like i was wrong.
-- Edited by Ebonycloud on Tuesday 30th of June 2009 01:13:55 AM
oh Ebbs, that's a beautiful poem. And I think I know how you feel. Yes, this was a long time ago, but it might still apply. If the world seems like it's gone from under your feet, or it won't stop spinning and changing from what you know and recognize as familiar, grab onto something tight, a friend that you love dearly, a pet, a parent, something that won't change, and ride it out. You can think of it as a metro. Sometimes it'll stop suddenly and gar you from your position, but other times it'll glide into a smooth pause before picking up again. That's what life is like, so grab onto that passenger pole, and hang on~ We're all here for you Ebbs. ^-^
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"If he dies, then it will be God's will."
"If that was meant to be comforting, it was not."
"Everyone dies eventually. Once you are born, you begin to die."
"That was not comforting either!"
"It is the way of the Creed. Usually our deaths are violent but quick."
genre: Poem/romance/angst/whatever else you can think of
pairing: Ghost Town/Dex
notes: This is sort of in response to Resta's most recent GT/Dex Patriot writing and stuff... yeah... Not lame... and the whole problem with their recent arguement is in large part due to Ghost Town's stubborness XD
At the End of All things
I look at her, she looks at me. For some reason, we've always been 'meant to be'. What sort of joke is this? A twisted one that causes us to miss The very heart of truth.
Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies.
Argue and fight, thats what we do. It's hard to fight the strange connection of we two. These tense emotions of mine, the flaring of hate, Only matched by her stubborn mind that makes it all too late.
Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies.
How can I tell her? How can I make her see? Now they are gone. All that is left is us, a race of three. We go to war, it's what we know, These words of hate, we spew until they flow.
Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies.
If she is gone from this world, what shall I do? Will I go on until my life is nothing, Until it is through? No, my heart and soul would not stand Against the strain of the world's demand.
Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies.
When her life ends, so does mine. The connection we've made is so fragile, It's ever so fine. I cannot stand this world without her, without the only one. The one who has left me in shambles, left me undone.
Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies.
So you stand across that barrier, intent on letting me keep my life. I stand there, hand pounding against it, My voice filled with desperation, with strife. My eyes sting with the tears that I've shed. Your content smile mocks me. You know you'll soon be dead.
Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies.
Why won't you let me stand beside you? Why must we fight? Here at the end of all things, When our instinct tells us to take flight. I would stay with you, you know that I would. Yetyou tell me this is how it is, Your life ending like it should.
Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies.
Don't you realize that if you die, I die too? Won't you let me stand at your side, until our lives are through? Please take me back, I can't stand it alone. This darkness will take me, all my sanity will have flown Away until I can no longer see your face.
Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies.
Please tell me the lies, The lies that say there is more to me and you. Tell me the lies that let me believe you'll Let me see the end with you until it's through. Until the darkness flees and we stand at the dawn. All of our fears and hates, completely gone.
Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies.
But no, you will not. You smile, you know it's over. The pain in your life that you've kept under your cover. It's over and I will be forced to go on without you. Don't make me live this life without the 'meant to be', Without we two.
I beg you,
please,
Tell me the lies, tell me sweet little lies.
-- Edited by Ebonycloud on Tuesday 3rd of January 2012 12:00:43 AM
This. Is. FLAWLESS. The angst, the hurt, the EVERYTHING. I love these two, and this, oh goodness! And not even just the fact of the pairing, your writing is superb! My hearts is all...fdgkbadf;lkgb. Perfect work my dear! PERFECT.
Oh golly! Thanks so much Goldie! I love this pairing! So much AAAAAAaaagnssst! Also, I edited so that the punctuations are back, and a few misspellings are fixed ;D