I like it. ALOT. Please more soon! It's amazing! At first i thought the guy's name was Chris, and i was like "o.o" [my ex boyfriend] but all's good now! haha xD
I'm lost in this big world, trying to get a hold on my life
I can't get over on how much you love me. That you'd try to collect every raindrop in the world for me if I told you to. That you would jump into a ring of fire to save me. That you would save me from the ocean, dying yourself.
But time passes and people start to change. The world starts becoming something different; the people start becoming something different. And I don't know why, but you changed so much. Instead of that perfect figure, you're now someone I don't know. A stranger.
Maybe if I told you a secret you wouldn't have changed, hun. If I said to you "I love you more than anything," then maybe you would have stayed with me. If I kissed you more often, then maybe you would have stayed. But baby, I didn't.
And you're gone faster than you came. One minute, you're whispering to me "Baby, I can't live without you," and the next, you're glaring at me like I am something gross, something disgusting. Maybe I did something wrong. But you could have always told me. I wouldn't have gotten mad at you, only me for doing something stupid. But I guess that wasn't the situation, because after 3 days, you wouldn't talk to me.
Baby, I'd try everything I could possibly do to get you back. Honey, I'd die to see your beautiful face once more. A hole has been ripped in my chest. A monster grabbed my heart. And tore my rib cages. I am nothing but shreds. I know you would've saved me before. But I don't know what in the world happened. It is as if you made me go into pain yourself.
But honey, I'll forgive you if you apologize. I need to see those beautiful brown eyes. I need to touch your soft chest. I want you. I need you. But you don't want me. You don't care about me, you don't need me. Oh, why did I ever fall for you?
Because of your brown eyes. They glow when you're happy, which was almost every moment you were with me. Your smile. It was the most beautiful smile ever. Your hair, the way you would put it. I miss them all. I miss you, most of all. But you left me, you deserted me. Is that really love? Am what I'm feeling love?
No, because love is when you kiss. Love is when you smile and see your boyfriend ever day and never ever break up. Love is where you marry, then have kids. Your own family. We HAD love, but you tore it apart. You ruined it.
I'm lost in this big world. I can't figure it out. Before, I was a normal kid. During, I was a happy teen with you. And now... I'm a kid who need serious help.
Take your ugly face out of my world. Why don't you abandon me. Why not just leave me in the dark? Shut the door. Close the windows, lock the doors. I don't care what the crap you do. I really don't! I tore you out of my heart. And because of that, you're nothing but a fly. A stupid, icky ugly fly. And you know what? I hate flies. You can walk off and put your hand up in my face, motioning 'Talk-to-the-hand'. Well, only stupid guys do that. And you fit perfectly in that category. Stupid. Wow. I just realized that after months of dating you. Maybe you could realize that I don't care what you do... actually, I do. I wish you would jump off a bridge. I wish you would go emo and commit suiside. I wish that you would go live in Antarctica and freeze to death. You know what? You would do that! As I said, aren't you a bit mental? Yes, yes, yes. I did say 'I LOVE YOU'. But that was before. Before you became that stupid idiot. Before you started going out with that cheerleader excuse for a girl. Before you cheated on me. AND I DON'T GIVE A CRAP WHAT YOU DO.