Warrior Cats: The Four Clans

Everythings good! Hmmmmm....let me guess....because you were hungry!!!

What!!!! Im trying to get 100 posts so i can make my topic: My Life Is Random. P.S. I like smileys!=)

Hey! im going to start my own journalYay!

Wendsday August 5th,2010 2:32 am

Hey guys,
Latley Things aound my place are going a little crazy. Yeah, when I first joined this site I was all peppy and happy, but you know what happens when reality finally takes its toll and the magic drains out of you...I'm sorry to say that it's just about washed away from me. No, I'm not going to lie and start saying "But I can change that!" because I've known I can change it...but I havn't. While I've been here with my happy peepy mask ebbing away, I've been trying to keep that mask on and keep pondering on what you guys were doing and still ended up centering my idiotic fantasy around me. I'm extreemly appologetic for that...I can't beleive I didn't write this when I finally started facing the music. I kinda remember when I used to be all peppy and I used to be sillly about it, but I'm afraid that that's about gone for some reason.

I don't know when I started to get this through my head, but it happened, maybe about two years ago. Not everything can be perfect for someone. I also realize I've been exporting my childish feelings and jealousies through my RP characters. That means when cloudandis felt emotionless and empty and didn't care, that was how I felt. And when Vincint from the Mutants RP felt angry and childishly released energy through shouting "You don't care" like it was a big surprise, that was how I was feeling.

I appologize for how I've been acting. I think that it's just a little depression after some recent events  like a shooter havng been in my town and tunring himself in with the threat that if he didn't he'd kill himself, or my biological dad kidnapping me. I seem to accept things in a very childish way and hate to lose.



-- Edited by Scorchheart on Friday 6th of August 2010 08:54:43 AM